So I applied for a loan on a government project and I just discovered
I did not qualify for the loan.
What was I thinking anyway? my application was very shoddy as I am not so surprised.
I think I was still hoping a miracle will happen.
I have to  take life more seriously so i can live a more fulfilled life......
Does that make sense at all?
What exactly do I want to change in my life:
My Job
My weight
My home ( Children)
I think at every point in my life there is always something I want to change.
Always a fear of what to expect.
During JSS , SSCE, JAMB, University graduation.
Looking for my first job e.t.c.
Now promotion......
I think everybody just has to  move on ( do something different ) when we reach a stage where by nothing seems to be working.( like I am now)
So I hate the Job I am doing now- have been on it for 8 years!!!
I think its the length of time that makes it so difficult.