So I applied for a loan on a government project and I just discovered
I did not qualify for the loan.
What was I thinking anyway? my application was very shoddy as I am not so surprised.
I think I was still hoping a miracle will happen.
I have to  take life more seriously so i can live a more fulfilled life......
Does that make sense at all?
What exactly do I want to change in my life:
My Job
My weight
My home ( Children)
I think at every point in my life there is always something I want to change.
Always a fear of what to expect.
During JSS , SSCE, JAMB, University graduation.
Looking for my first job e.t.c.
Now promotion......
I think everybody just has to  move on ( do something different ) when we reach a stage where by nothing seems to be working.( like I am now)
So I hate the Job I am doing now- have been on it for 8 years!!!
I think its the length of time that makes it so difficult.

Weight Loss

So I am taking the weight lose thing seriously.

I am going to take Lemon juice and water  though out the day.

Eat just fruit for breakfast Lunch and Dinner.

I might eat salad for Lunch too.

This is until i lose the 10 kg that i want to lose.

I will post a before and after picture/video.

Governor of Kaduna State Dead

http://dailypost.com.ng/2012/12/15/bayelsa-helicopter-crash-governor-yakowas-aide-confirms-death/?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter&utm_campaign=bayelsa-helicopter-crash-governor-yakowas-aide-confirms-deathThe Governor of Kaduna state in Nigeria has been confirmed dead by an unnamed aide in a helicopter crash that took place today.

i wonder if its true, the Don jazzy and Dbanji opening a night club!

So i heard Big brother Karen Igho was slapped at a night club.
She must be so angry!!

So I have not kept to my fruit diet.
Not good . But i have to lose weight!
Will try 30 minuets exercise everyday.
I know my BMI is 27- ! am over weight.
I  realize that i need to seat up and do several things:

• Weight lose.
• Save money for my next cycle.
• I am even considering  seriously resigning from my present Job, I keep thinking that the work stress is affecting my IVF chances.

I am African,  I need to have children!
Any ideas anybody?

so i have decided to go on a fruit diet.
i hope this works out.
i want to use fruit of the spirit on self control to control mt eating.
may be if i am healthier my next treatment will work out.
i know i should be more religious but i dont pray as much about it.
i have asked God ans i expect that he will answer, in his time!

first post

so i decided to create a blog!
i am 34 years old this year and i have been trying o get pregnant for 5 years.
its been alot of ups and downs in my life.