negative result

Hello People,
The IVF didn’t work!! (A lass what I have feared the most.)
I am devastated to say the least.
I am not even crying this time.
I feel as if I have never had a relationship with Jesus.
Like I have been deceiving myself.
I actually felt like he told me to go to the clinic i went to so I expected that it will mean that he will use the doctor but not I am back to square one and 12,000 dollars poorer.
I keep thinking and asking why do i work?  if all the small savings I have is going to doctors.
I feel like i should just save as much as i can i.e it means i wont  my money anything else until i achieve the pregnancy.
The doctor is suggesting that i remove the fibriod before trying again but i do not think i will go back there.
I want to call South Africa to book an appointment.
I should be there next week if I can get a date.
Will keep you posted.

Hello out there,
Today is the last day of my two weeks wait.
Honestly, i am not as confident as i was at the beginning.
I do not seem to have any pregnancy signs, Of course i have some symptoms but not very strong.
These symptoms can be from the drugs i am on.
I did a home pregnancy test on day 10 and it was negative.
Since then i have just been planning what next.
I will go to the hospital tomorrow ( - I wanted to go today but hanged my mind) and do the blood test.
I pray that it is positive but if it’s not I won't die
I really dont know what to say to this for now.
I will wait until the blood test sha.